Jesus Christ Superstar

I like Notingham.
Caz is lame.
I smile more =D!
Life is better there.

My cousin ran away again. Thousands of dollars well spent. My family's problems are too extensive for me to keep up with. So I've stopped trying to. I just love Avery and my Mama. We should just start our own clan with no drugs or the bad crazy. It would be nice.

Best Frannnndddd

[22:44] Wednesday: .....wouldnt have been dry with you.....

And the distance just makes it worse...

I feel like I've lost something I never had. I hate geography. I hate the fact that I live half and a hour away from my best friend and an hour away from... boy. Stupid boy.

I don't even know how I feel. I feel everything but what's rational. Insecure. Angry. Annoyed. Disappointed. Alone. Upset. Confused. Amused. Stupid. It's not even worth the time to explain. No one did anything wrong. There was nothing set in stone, I just thought we were all informed. But since no one says how they feel, how the hell would I know. Nothings changed. Life sucks as always. I'm still restrained and frustrated. Nothing new, even though I said "I love you." I need to be reassured. I still just want to move on even though I'm still upset. But nothing can be solved until I have a fucking way to get closer.

A car and a license would be extremely beneficial to my life right now. I want out.

I need this

He makes me really really really really happy. I want him to come back really really soon.

I love fashion shoots and Alexis and Hannah and Ashleigh for giving me boob and hip confidence.
I love half days and skipping track.
And I love bowling with drama club kids and band geeks.
As well as eating fries and walking in the cold.

Sore crotch

It's days like today when I ask myself why in the hell I run track. And then I remember this...

I pulled my crotch muscle and it hurts.

I found out today that if I didn't learn to play trumpet this year, and play that instead of clarinet in the concert band, they wouldn't have been able to split the band up. And I really like the trumpet.

I've felt like this before...

I need to get out of this town.
It's suffocating.
I really need to get out to the people that I really care about.